i wanted to change the previous journal....exams are tomorrow and i should be studying but i'm not. i'm weary and tired i'm becoming paranoid about people and life. i have no where to turn except to God. however i tend to forget that but a friend of mine helps me always remember. i'm walking the path i need to but what happens when you just want to stop? I need to stay constant about my feelings for people. I'm struggling to hold back emotions until i can't bear it. Not the best way to go but that's the only way because there is no person that understands, or someone willing to listen. I'm afraid if i'm not constant with my feelings then i will most definatly lose someone i afford to lose.