i wanted to change the previous journal....exams are tomorrow and i should be studying but i'm not. i'm weary and tired i'm becoming paranoid about people and life. i have no where to turn except to God. however i tend to forget that but a friend of mine helps me always remember. i'm walking the path i need to but what happens when you just want to stop? I need to stay constant about my feelings for people. I'm struggling to hold back emotions until i can't bear it. Not the best way to go but that's the only way because there is no person that understands, or someone willing to listen. I'm afraid if i'm not constant with my feelings then i will most definatly lose someone i afford to lose.

i'm going to marching band camp TT.TT
wahhhh....i'm going into church withdrawl or something....i haven't been to my church for almost a month. The first week i missed was that i went to pittsburgh to meet my old childhood friend. the second week i went camping till Sunday. this week i'm missing cuz of marching band camp T.T i miss my koren friends and just even seeing a glimpse of them will make me happy.

IT'S MY BIRHTDAY!! W00T!!...enthusiasm gone....=_= all well i really don't feel any different

i had the wierdest dream, and for some reason i had a huge mood swing. i found it hilarious. xD i'm a bit content yet sad, for someone who seem close, seems so far beyond my reach. T.T

i am writing this just to take out the old journal...nothing special just like the subject! ^^